monologues of the mentally misbegotten: <strong>Finding Bonie's Shalala</strong>

Finding Bonie's Shalala

Tuesday, July 22, 2008

IF it had been as easy as drawing dandelions on white sheets of paper during wee hours of the day, or perhaps counting pages of a book (of five books) left unread in one of the nooks of a yellow room, those questions raised since the past few moons of taciturnity would have been, with no trouble, answered. And if it had only been pointed out by maps, old and new, multihued or black and white, it's quite plausible that anyone could have (and would have) been able to find it.

Finding it, whether by happenstance or through the tedium of day by day comings and goings, is one's hardest point in time as penning down these thoughts and weaving them into words. Especially those that are ineffably effable. Those that one tries to speak of, but can't. Those that would have been, but never was. Those that had been there, but could never be found. Those synonymous to love, hope and of happiness.

Of happiness and the sheer thought of finding it, with your self (your whole self) and perhaps unexpectedly bumping on to someone that could lead you to it's way, it's reality. That it's not one-way street, but unlimited-access highways, one has to recount the Cheshire cat's counsel "That depends a good deal on where you want to get to." That it's not always rich and vibrant with colors, but could sometimes be shades of gray, and one should bring along that little light inside one's self when it would all of a sudden turn pitch-black and unmoving.

And with these, one realizes that shalala is not a town petered out. Not just a town of metaphors and similes, not of nostalgia and ephemeral utopias, but of hope. It dwells despite of topographical non-existence. And to those who, like me, are trying to seek it, other than knowing where to go, one has to be keen in seeing .

for Marlon

@ 4:50 PM |

15 Comments:

At September 20, 2008 at 9:47 AM, Psyche said...

finding shalala is easy, it's how you keep it and share it to others, mao na and lisod.. ^.^

At September 20, 2008 at 2:59 PM, kendi said...

can you perhaps teach me how? been having trouble with the directions lately.. tsk tsk..

At September 22, 2008 at 9:45 AM, Miki said...

uuuy, nabanhaw ang kendi hehehe. came up for air from pure bliss? nga pala, did you draw that girl with the dandelion? ang ganda.

At September 25, 2008 at 5:31 PM, Anonymous said...

drift like those lip-blown dandelions.

At September 30, 2008 at 5:55 PM, kendi said...

@ kuya miki: hindi, tinamad ako magdrawing so i searched for one. hehe

@ tinay: sobrang drifting na...

At October 5, 2008 at 8:44 PM, the assassin within said...

without difficulty finding it, it wouldn't be called shalala...
usa lagi ni sa pina ka nice na blog na akong na abtan... :)

At October 5, 2008 at 10:05 PM, kendi said...

thanks! :)

At October 8, 2008 at 9:46 AM, Anonymous said...

i've already linked you up... :)

At October 9, 2008 at 2:35 PM, kendi said...

linked you up too! :)

At October 14, 2008 at 8:55 PM, lucas said...

hey, ms. candy. it's really cool na napadpad ka sa yungib ko. but anyway thanks for the compliments. and you're right. words are overflowing when i'm glum. hehehe!

nakakatuwa naman at ang dami pala na nating similarities. makes, the 15 weird things just common. ahehehe!

you write really well. and your vocabulary is way beyond my understanding. ahehehe! dalawang beses ko pa talaga xa binasa. ahehe! uhmm... are you a visual artist?

thanks, again :)

At October 15, 2008 at 12:32 PM, Anonymous said...

hi. tnx also. i'l add you up.

At October 16, 2008 at 8:23 PM, lucas said...

playing 'twinkle2 little star' in violin is an achievement already! ahehehe!

WOAH! your sister is really talented. perhaps the right side of her brain is a little bit larger than the left. joke! hehehe!

oh my gosh... i draw and paint too... write and read... and i'm a registered nurse. just passed by boards last june.

it was nice meeting you. parang crush na yata kita. hehehe!

peace out!

At October 17, 2008 at 10:36 PM, kendi said...

@ ron:
i think it's quite an achievent too, and to have myself play it at school, well.. haha. kapal ng mukha ko nun.

we sure have a lot of things in common. crush? naks...

ex links? :)

At October 18, 2008 at 1:27 AM, rainisrian said...

*clears throat* ehem ehem

At October 18, 2008 at 12:07 PM, kendi said...

sore throat hon?
;p

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