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Thursday, May 7, 2009

Happiness. Which is not that hard to spell, not even so hard to say. I am hap-hap-happy! And yes, it's Tiggerific, dear me!

But how to explain? Just how can you explain? When words suddenly grab you by the throat, and you're stuck with trivial giggles coupled by that stupid (oh so stupid sardonic) smile sa bao as well as nothing to muster other than Wala lang, basta.

Wala lang, basta. Because you don't know, or you do know, but just can't ridiculously find the right words to give away. Or perhaps, you see yourself scribbling phrases on a grocery receipt, or on a plastic coffee cup, or even on toilet paper (ha!). Those terse verses, those out of the blue lines, those that most probably don't really make sense to others, but perfectly does to you.

Wala lang, basta. Was all you can say, and maybe you just think it's much, much more comforting (and terribly honest) to succumb the rest to silence and leave the others guessing. Suppose you've gone peculiar. Suppose you've gone mad. Suppose you suddenly became mute (and perhaps deaf). Or suppose you are happy (yes!). Suppose you are in love?
Other than chortling with the rest of the hypotheses one could think of, you come to realize that it's such a surprise, how our once overly sentimental, emo-recollecting, and seemingly poignant poetic selves can't somehow pen down (or say) those lines for the sheer (and insane) reason of wala lang, basta or just because. ;p

@ 12:52 AM |

25 Comments:

At May 7, 2009 at 8:31 PM,  Anonymous said...

kadutski yo!
wala lang :p

finally, you're back!

 

At May 7, 2009 at 9:09 PM,  kendi said...

haha! tenkyu!
don't get me wrong, i'm not trying to rationalize my drifting phase. and believe me, this was somehow written for a few souls. :p

 

At May 7, 2009 at 9:54 PM,  rainisrian said...

I feel like I'm reading a best-selling novel. :)

naka relate ko sa 'isuwat sa tissue'

 

At May 7, 2009 at 9:55 PM,  ZeroGravity said...

alam ko kung bakit ka happy. :D

 

At May 7, 2009 at 10:00 PM,  kendi said...

@ rian: char. i'm not even half as good as those writers. but thanks for the compliment.

@ sir jun: i am happy ba? why am i happy nga?

 

At May 9, 2009 at 9:45 AM,  Kai said...

wala lang, =)

 

At May 9, 2009 at 9:59 AM,  tinay said...

hahaha. i have an idea ngano "wala lang"

i hope i can say that soon with no lump sa akong throat :D

pag update permi kendz oi. write when your tipsy too :D

jube is yummy! haha

 

At May 9, 2009 at 11:20 AM,  kendi said...

@ kai: wala lang pud ;)

@ tin: well you have a lot of things to say and there will never be a lump on your throat. hehe. hopefully maka-update pirmi. kung wala koy topak. regards lang ko kay jeub. ;)

 

At May 10, 2009 at 11:56 PM,  lucas said...

for me, it's easier to write when i'm emotionally low. when i'm happy i just can't find the right words to describe it.it's just as it is...:P

i could totally relate with the tissue papers and paper cups! hehe! so i'm not loony, am i? :)


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i've been looking for you :) i lost your link when i changed my roll. thanks for finding me again, kendi...

I'm a fan.

 

At May 11, 2009 at 12:55 AM,  kendi said...

lucas! hehe. that's why it took me sooo much time to write this. it's been on queue at my drafts for quite a some time, i was up to the first few lines lang.

that's similar to what one of our local writers said, "i write best when i'm sad."

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well, i have your comments here that's why i checked your blog again and read your novel-like posts. hehe! nice to hear from you! and no, i'm your fan. :)

 

At May 15, 2009 at 6:12 PM,  lucas said...

hi ms. kendi! :)

well, ok lang yun if it took you so long to write this. it's simply beautiful :)

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[but love is one disease of which the only cure is the thing itself. :)]

this sounds familiar. sayo ko din yata nabasa yun eh? people suffer from a disease caused by lack of love? hehe! but very true...kelangan ko nga siguro ng ectrin/ambroxol at L-O-V-E. yikes! san ako hahanap nun? hehe!

 

At May 16, 2009 at 11:21 PM,  kendi said...

haha! it's easy to find ambrolex or ectrin at your nearby drugstore.

though love is ubiquitous, i, too have been having a hard time. good luck to both of us! :)

 

At May 26, 2009 at 12:40 PM,  eli said...

this is simply great! ang husay ng pagkakasulat.

hmm..bakit kaya sya happy?

 

At June 4, 2009 at 8:46 AM,  hanz said...

Wow, ang ganda naman po ng layout at graphics ng site nyo. da best!

napadaan lang po.

 

At June 17, 2009 at 4:52 PM,  Mads said...

Hi I love your blog's layout super whimsy and you history is super cute sana you'll make an MSE din..=) I'm a medical intern pala, have you graduated already?

-mads
fashionisthebestmedicine.blogspot.com

 

At June 17, 2009 at 6:52 PM,  kendi said...

@ hanz: thank you! drop by again. :)

@ madz: the minute i read your name, i thought you were one of my classmates. hehe. MSE's kinda long to make. lol. i've been thinking about it and just haven't had enough time.

yes, i have already graduated and am a registered nurse. thank you for dropping by! :)

 

At August 7, 2009 at 2:53 PM,  duke said...

inlababo yan.

 

At August 12, 2009 at 3:31 PM,  Anonymous said...

Trees do not accumulate life, but deadwood, like a thickening coat of mail... some trees sink taproots to rock; some spread wide mats of roots clutching at acres. They will not be blown. We run around under these obelisk-creatures, teetering on our soft, small feet. We are out on a jaunt, picnicking, fattening like puppies for our deaths. Shall I carve a name on this trunk? What if I fell in a forest, would a tree hear?

Came across these while thinking of you. It's nice seeing you smile at a distance, Gale.

 

At August 12, 2009 at 4:26 PM,  kendi said...

@ anonymous: 1st, i only know of a few people who call me by the name Gale.

2nd, it was nice of you to post those lines. reminds me of Joyce Kilmer's Trees. I just don't know from which book was that, but it was poetic. very.

3rd, if hearing is the last sense that man has before dying, i guess maybe, just maybe, the trees will hear you.

my heartfelt thanks to you, i don't deserve such notice. :)

 

At September 15, 2009 at 7:48 PM,  Kikit said...

This is a very thoughtful entry. Makarelate tanan Pinoy and since nibisita ka sa akong blog, you know nga "wala lang" is also my favorite expression at the moment.

Salamat Kendi. Or Gale :)

 

At September 16, 2009 at 2:22 PM,  kendi said...

hello kit! welcome! i guess you have lately been saying a lot of "wala lang" hehe. glad to know you and him are getting along very well. ;)

 

At October 16, 2009 at 10:06 PM,  Febbe said...

nice nice.. i'm loving your blog. =)

 

At October 17, 2009 at 12:36 PM,  kendi said...

thank you febbe! :)

 

At October 20, 2009 at 10:59 PM,  Kelvin Servigon said...

*off topic*
first time here, ganda ng blog mo!

I love the banner, ganda ng design. :)

 

At October 21, 2009 at 5:35 PM,  kendi said...

thank you kelvin! how did you get here? :)

 

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